I watched this YouTube clip of the Ethiopian Intersection today in the quiet of the house. Kids in school. Husband at another ministry meeting. Second cup of coffee. Face still unwashed. Unsettled soul. I laughed out loud. Then cried. This video describes well how I currently feel.
My literary agent mentioned, after being in town for The BEST Book Launch Party EVER, on our way to the airport,
“Don’t be surprised if you feel a let down in a few weeks after the dust settles.”
I nodded but inside I thought, “Pshhhheeesh. I’ll be fine.”
The same response I had when Darrin and I attended a marriage conference as an engaged couple.
“Psshhhhheeesh. I doubt we’ll deal with any of the stuff that guy talked about.”
Almost twenty-three years of marriage and I humbly admit we have dealt with all the stuff the guy talked about and more.
So, of course, my wise agent proved wise. Except I didn’t realize the funk I felt until I watched the video. Life feels chaotic but somehow no one has gotten run over. Yet.
If left to myself I hold my breath and expect one pile up after another. And yet, in the midst of chaos, everyone in the video is getting to where they need to go. Even the pedestrians walking THROUGH the center of the car maze (did you see them?).
Honestly, when I think about life nowadays, I’m sobered. More often than not, life does not line up neatly. No lanes, just a general sense of the overall direction. Most of us are living lives different than we pictured. I realize, as I watch the video, my tendency to want to play it safe. Why even head into the chaos? Why not just stay put. Maybe watch. Maybe criticize the road designer. The drivers. The pedestrians.
But I have heard the Shepherd voice. My life is not my own. Currently He is leading me through external chaos like the intersection. Terrifying. Unknown. Stressful.
But I have pledged to go where He leads.
And I trust in the end that His path proves most worthwhile.
How about you? How do you navigate chaos?